After her husband's death, Christien Brinkgreve rearranges their shared home. What appears to be an outward routine triggers an inner transformation: a woman looks back—on her life, her marriage, her role in her family and in the world. What remains of their decades together? Who was she in the relationship, who is she without it? And how could she, as a self-determined woman, have lost herself between love and the expectations of others? Brinkgreve's courageous book finds words for key experiences shared by many women. A radically personal retrospective, a profound and unflinching exploration of womanhood, aging, and the life choices we make out of love. New product