Since a fall, the British writer Hanif Kureishi has been paralyzed from the neck down. In this extraordinary diary, he talks about his new life. 'Powerful, harrowing, absolutely captivating. It will change your view of life and love.' Elif Shafak 'A few days ago, a bomb hit my life.' This is how the extraordinary memoir of the successful British author Hanif Kureishi begins. On Boxing Day 2022, Kureishi gets dizzy after walking through the gardens of Villa Borghese in Rome. When he comes to, he can no longer move his arms and legs. From then on, he can no longer do anything without the help of others. And at the same time, his mind is working at full speed: Every day he dictates stories to his family into the iPad. Full of wit, gallows humor and at the same time touching lightness. About his new and his old life. About his childhood as the son of a Pakistani immigrant in London. About the increasing fanaticism in the world and his friendship with Salman Rushdie. Clever, rebellious, touching messages with which Hanif Kureishi proves that he is rightly one of the most original, fearless and important literary voices in his country. 'Another shitty night. I can't move my arms and legs, and no one heard me. So it's a good opportunity to think about life.'