An impressive novel about the decisive turn we took back then and the excuses we tell ourselves until we believe them ourselves Annika leads a quiet life and has long since stopped thinking about the traumatic events that turned her world upside down more than thirty years ago. Until seventeen-year-old climate activist Luzie disrupts her everyday life and shakes up the memory of the person whose name Annika hardly dares to pronounce: Milena. In the Hamburg squatter scene of the eighties, Annika, Milena and Matti were inseparable. They thought they were invincible, just like Luzie does. In order to save them from a momentous mistake, Annika contacts Matti again. She travels to Italy to see him - and learns that everything she thought she knew about that time is a lie. New product